reflection 3-freedom from relationships!!!

this is one of the biggest freedom/relive i had this year
getting set free from that wretched relationship is my biggest happiness this year!!!

i mean wow....i just cant believe i am finally free
there was this girl i dated for around 6 months...she is suicidal, mentally ill, spoil, only care about herself girl......

never have i date a girl as worst as she is....
when i first saw her she was ok....she was pretty....popular....dont seem like theres anything wrong with her....but the moment i got closer to her....all the evil things come out

she is the one girl that almost drive me over the wall....she is crazy

the smses she send are tormenting!!!8 out of 10 of her calls, smses are negative one
she either needs cash, got problems, sick or going to kill herself now....

smses like
right now i am having a breathing problem now...but i choose not to take my medication because i think life is miserable...i just want it to end!!!

then
please leave me alone, this is my last moment i just want to spend my last moment alone

more smses
i am having a headache now but i will not take any medication, its better for people like me to die...i dont deserve anything!!

but surprisingly she seems to be able to live that long despite having a suicidal mentality...
someond told me, those who threathen to kill themselves do not have enough guts to do it....

its really torture, at times when i receive those smses i cant sleep, i cant convince her to stop killing herself, i cant do anything!!!worst of all sometimes she close her phone so when i try to call i cannot reach her......this is seriously madness!!!!
in my life i never faced anything like this, i always dont know what to do....its such a torture....
and worst of all i cant do anything, i cant tell my friends, i cant seek help....or she will kill herself(that is what i believe)

but after she moved to inti and i moved to segi i got used to her threats and just ignore it....or play along......
at times because of her my midterm exams is on 1pm....i have to rush to her place at 12pm to give her cash as she claims that she got no money and will get gastric and die lol......

at times she will go balistic because she did not study for her exams....which in the end she get 93 marks....swt

but thank God i am able to concentrate in my exams!!!
then i have to on my phone all the time and hold it close to me!!!
if she cannot reach me, i will find my phone filled with emm 85 smses....or 34 miscalls
and from a normal sms it can turn to a suicidal threat....at times even at night i have to leave my phone on!!!

worse thing is when threathening me and using me as her supplier or shelter, i heard rumours about her going out with guys in her college.....and eventually we broke up......
but even after broke up she still kacau me....alot........

but when the night is at its darkest, the sun will rise...
true enough when she goes to US to studt, she cant bother me anymore!!!
except through email, msn, and yahoo......well i do as any smart person would, block her, become invisible when i come online and commit her and her life to God!!!

one post is impossible to sum up what she did to me or take from me......or the horrid experience i had
i have to say i am not perfect either....i take alot from her too....but not as much as she took from me......

so to sum this up i thank God for setting me free from relationships....i am just so sick of it...
and when this girl comes along, i will think twice...em think 1000 times before i get into the next one!!!
i am more happy than any single men in the world now.....i know alot of single 21-year-old who are so depress when they dont have a gf.....
when i hear their story i could only smile and thank God for my freedom!!!
will i get into another relationship soon?

nope....i am enjoying my single life so much....i mean no need to worry about not listening to phone calls, no need to care for another, can sleep anytime i want and no need to call the girl and make sure she sleeps first and the list goes on.......
for now i will make as much friends as possible and maybe after my studies who knows.......